Can sacred mushrooms open us to self love and compassion? Resolve trauma and depression that won’t budge? And foster a meeting with the Divine?
Today’s today I’m opening up about my sacred plant medicine journey with psilocybin.
I’ve been what many people might call “straight edge” most of my life. Never feeling pulled to drink, smoke, or try other mind altering substances. I often attributed this to two reasons.First, my family on all lineages has histories of addiction. The second reason was I loved feeling in control. This is a common tendency for many trauma survivors.
The whole idea of entering into an altered state brought on by a substance felt terrifying.
As the years of my life ticked on, I couldn’t deny that I continued to have synchronicities with people talking about their experiences with sacred plant medicines. And particularly psilocybin.
Since I’ve never been a partier, the party scene of psychedelics never appealed to me. And turned me off from their sacred medicine and spiritual nature for a very long time. But as I learned more about ceremonial and therapeutic approaches to plant and fungi sacred medicine, I felt more curious.
This deepened when I finished processing my childhood and adult sexual trauma with my trauma therapist. Despite feeling freer and more authentically myself, I felt a heavy cloud that wouldn’t lift from me.
It wasn’t just the heavy cloud that surprised me. As a deeply spiritual person, I found myself uncharacteristically feeling at times apathetic. I didn’t feel driven or inspired by my work anymore. Even though deep down I adored it. I started to wonder if my time doing intuitive and healing work was coming to an end. I found everyday life taxing. And honestly felt an existential crisis of faith. Feeling disconnected from the Divine. How could I have completed this incredibly important healing work and feel so unalive?
This week’s episode of Tune In with Marci is about my journey to heal my PTSD and reconnect back to Source through sacred mushrooms.
I reflect on:
How a heavy cloud that wouldn't lift after years of trauma and somatic-based therapy led me to say “yes” to sacred mushrooms.
How my journey with the fungi spirits led me to face my deepest fears and fulfilled my greatest spiritual desire.
The power of microdosing to boost inner work and self awareness.
A potent dream with a council of fungi spirits and an important message.
How I overcame my fears of working with psychedelic mushrooms.
And what the fungi taught me about myself, humanity, and the cosmic intelligence of life.
Much love,
Marci
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Disclaimer: This blog does not in any way encourage or condone the use, purchase, sale or transfer of any illegal substances, nor does it encourage or condone partaking in any unlawful activities. If you do end up using psychedelic substances, please do so safely and ideally with the support of an experienced practioner.